I have faith in the future I cannot see.

I was talking with a friend the other day, when I just realized something quite profound, only as the simple words accidentally fell out of my mouth.
"I am really happy right now . I mean, I have been singing silly songs all day, I wake up ready for whatever my day brings me, I am generally happy about my life."
I believe that it's the little things that you do unconsciously that are great indications of joy and content (like singing as you ride your bike to school for no reason). And I am comfortable with who I am, where I am, and the mindset that I have throughout my life. I am uncertain about where I am going - but that's OK.
I have faith in the future I cannot see.
I welcome the inevitable hardships ahead, knowing that I can navigate them with grace and stability because I am eager to learn something new each and every day.
I feel like I'm in love, but I'm really just in love with myself. I don't mean to say that I'm a narcisit , I just mean that I am OK with my own company - no negativity or self-deprecation necessary. I am happy.
I hope this doesn't all sound too sappy or insincere - because I truly mean what I say. I have been struggling a lot lately with the question
"Why am I here in Japan?"
I have to admit, I had a dozen or so ready-made answers then entire time I was planning the trip but I could never quite figure out why I was going.
Well, I think I found my reason - I had to search halfway around the world to 'find myself' as they say. I had to be afraid, alone, hurt even at times - to discover the resilience that lies within me.
I will probably continue to ask myself "why" for the entirety of my trip - I still have awe-struck moments where I am overwhelmed by the rushing emotions accompanying the thought,
"I can't believe I am actually LIVING IN JAPAN. Is this my life? No way, this sort of thing doesn't happen in my life, it's got to be a dream - a grand abstract dream."
But it is real, I am here; living, breathing. And I'm really, truly, happy.