sick little lady
I g
ot so sick this weekend.It was definitely:
pain-killer-popping, soak-your-sheets-with-sweat, burning-high-fever, unplanned-visit-to-the-ER, bring-me-some-noodle-soup, oh-god-i-want-my-mommy, sleep-18-hours-a-day, nausea-vomit-nausea, where-did-three-days-just-go?
type of sick.
I am still feeling the lingering aftereffects of:
lumps-of-recycled-tissue-in-my-pocket, nasty-unhealed-canker-sore, waking-up-in-the-morning-is-a-hateful-act, don't-want-to-talk-to-anyone
and I'm trying to resume my normal and intense schedule of events. Like today, I start school at 9am, take classes and work in the writing center continuously until 4, go home and have one hour to myself when I can eat (probably more noodle soup) and then get ready for the crisis clinic, where I will stay until 9:30pm, when I go back home. Then I start my homework, which includes working on my senior thesis, my advanced Japanese homework, or finishing my grad school application essay (which is TOTALLY STRESSING ME OUT!!!) and then probably passing out from exhaustion around 2ish. Rinse and repeat.
I want out.
I have always had a real tendency to bite off more than I can chew, but this is fucking ridiculous. I am so burnt out and I'm nowhere near concluding any of the goals I need to accomplish, and I know that I am not taking care of myself, but that's just too damn bad. I am passed out on the track sidelines before the gun has even gone off. And it's a little scary.
I am thinking about quitting Applebee's and trying to live off my writing center income (about $300 a month) and my savings (less than $1500) until May when I... Amazingly hope that 1) I get a shit load of money from distant relatives and family friends who are amazingly proud of me for graduating, and 2) Get the type of really well paying job that a college grad deserves. Fat chance to both... But if I quit the Bee's then at least I will be able to play homework and sleep catch-up on the weekends, possibly preventing me from getting THIS SICK again.
Waddayathink?
posted by Mo @ 10:11 AM
4 Comments:
quit your job and go to sleep!
I am seriously thinking about it. I sat down and crunched some numbers, and it all pretty much looks like this:
This week I will have worked 39 hours between my 3 jobs (including the fact that I even had one six hour shift covered)
Spent 16 hours in class,
25+ hours on homework,
25+ hours on my grad school app,
and not slept much at all.
If I incurr no unexpected expenses I can probably pay all of my monthly expenses in about $355.
If I make about $315 a month in the writing center,
and have about $1500 in savings... it might just work through May.
This all relies on the premise that I do not spend any money on anything but my immidate needs, and no big emergency spending is necessary (like a broken car, or broken head).
I'm going to give it a week or two more, then decide after spring break.
Hey
Seeing you being so sick makes me
worried sick!
I came to school hoping to see my teacher today,but his office was empty.
I thought he'd be there on Thursdays...
I feel like I'm such a retard sometimes.
In fact, I've been thinking I can't be any dumber than I am right now...
I don't even know why I've been so bummed out.
Anyways,I really hope you will get well soon!
I will write you again soon.
Hugsss,
Eri
Eri,
We all make such simple mistakes sometimes. I actually JUST got out of a class where I goofed up and forgot the assignment. These little mistakes happen in life becuase none of us are perfect.... what matters is that you not bully yourself. You are not a retard, you are a beautiful and brilliant bi-lingual college student - so you should feel proud! I'll try and so the same. :)
Peace and Love,
Mo
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